I'm missing you every so much. Especially this month. Probably cause its our bdays. I really wanna celebrate with you. When we were tgther, I promised that I will. But I didn't. I didn't forget but I just can't do it. I love you so deeply yet I hate you too. I hate the fact why am I so in love with you. I just hate myself. Okay I don't sound like a fucking man. I truly hoped that I can celebrate my birthday and yours tgther but things had to happen. I miss you so much, yet in ur heart, you would only miss him. Your heart belongs to him and I hate this. But I can't make a sound about this. Will you ever turn back? Not likely too.

I miss you.